Yep, I am officially finished with my College career (for the time being, who knows). 16 years of schooling on my shoulder and I have no idea where to start. My thoughts are jumbled and I still have this constant feeling that I’m missing a deadline.
I’ve always been excited for this moment because school always felt like a speed-bump or in some cases a roadblock. I can think of so many times in my life that if I weren’t in school, I could’ve done some amazing things. I know that I have to trust in myself, the universe, and god and that maybe those opportunities weren’t meant to be. Maybe whatever I’m meant to do is right around the corner or a little ways down the road. *shrugs*
So what am I going to do? I keep asking myself this question and, quite honestly, I’ve been asking myself this as long as I can remember. If you’re like me, you go with the flow but are also ambitious, a dreamer but also a realist. It makes it hard because you’re always canceling yourself out.
I wanted to be famous when I was a kid–that lead me to modeling–I stopped growing so then I tried out acting, then “blogging”, then photography, then youtube, then actually blogging, and now “social influencing” and digital marketing.
It’s crazy to think that everything I’ve ever done, has lead me to where I am today. I’ve given myself whole-heartedly into what I do and it might not be as easy as it is for other, but I genuinely love what I do with my entire being. Now I can truly focus on my passions and I’m excited to see where they take me.
Am I scared? I honestly don’t know… I’m numb to the thought of being out of school and having to start my life… I really don’t believe that you have to start your life immediately after school, take a moment to collect your thoughts and do what feel is right.
Where do I see myself in 5 years? Hopefully moved out, traveled, apart of a small group of close friends, doing something I enjoy, happy, and maybe even married or engaged. 5 years doesn’t seem like a long time, because 5 years ago I had started talking to Clark and was getting out of a relationship–Which literally feels like a year ago. But hear I am 5 years later, graduated, and doing something I love.
If you’ve stuck around this long, thank you! Maybe you’re right where I’m at and feel some type of relief that someone else is feeling stagnant. It’s okay… Trust in yourself, your journey, and your god, that everything will work out the way it’s supposed to. Put yourself out there and don’t be afraid to take chances. Hopefully I can take my own advice and maybe I’ll make another post in 5 years with an update on my life🤷🏻♀️